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As you guys now, I am doing my last year at high school and that is an very important year. This is my last year before university and because of that I need motivation. And I guess that I am not the only one who struggles to stay focused and motivated in school. So I found this site: . This is a site that I have been on when I’m starting to miss hope and need motivation.

Tips for Staying Motivated and focused in School
To succeed in high school and college, you have to do your best at all times. But sometimes it’s hard to stay motivated and focus, even when you really care about the work you’re doing. Here are five ways to stay on the right track and succeed.


1. Get rid of distractions and HIDE YOUR PHONE LOL

I know you want to hang out, chill, party or even sleep very late, but you need to stay focus on what matters most in your life. You’re education and your success! Don’t waste time or money chasing things that won’t help you graduate or succeed in life.

large-2The key to success in school is staying focused on your work. make a plan. Although it’s tempting to do the simplest assignments first, those that take more time and effort to accomplish are probably the ones that you’ll learn the most from.

We, as humans, can be easily distracted by just about anything, from the nagging voice of a family member to the insatiable yearning to finish the latest episode of Power or Scandal (which are my two favorite shows… don’t judge me lol. Some of these distractions can be dealt with by simply removing the distraction. For example, you could politely ask your sister or brother to quiet down, lower the music or watch TV in the other room. If that doesn’t work, you could wear ear plugs or listen to soothing music if that works for you. The goal is finding something that works for YOU! Your best interest. But it’s not always as easy as that. Set yourself up for success by creating a reasonable (and productive!) interval schedule: every assignment completed, you can watch one TV show, or something along those lines. Be patient with yourself and don’t beat yourself up.

2. Be Organized, or at least try your best to be

“For every minute spent organizing, an hour is earned.”

Organized student = successful student!

Having an organized study/work space can be the greatest of motivators. Trust me. First, it is less likely that you’ll be distracted because you won’t be surrounded by things that are, in a sense, invading your space. Second, if you do find some organization (and it doesn’t need to be a typical or common version of organization; we each need to find our own version of what it means to be organized), you’ll discover that focusing is easier. Start by simply putting your flashcards or study guides in one area or folder. Place your regular use items, like your coffee mug, favorite note-taking pen or Superman action figure, in the place you always put them.

3. Do what you love

large-4Do what you love and love what you do! Doing what you love is a great thing. Don”t let anyone tell you different. Just as no one wants to be stuck in a job that they don’t like, students don’t want to be in a program that doesn’t bring them joy and satisfaction. If you find the educational pursuit that you love, whether it’s in business administration or criminal justice or bagpiping lol yes that is a major, you will find reasons to stay motivated. If you have a chosen course of study, you care about it and want to do well. So, please, strive toward pursuing and doing what you love! I believe in you! Trust me, but most of all… TRUST YOURSELF!
4. Find support group and be around like minded people

Create or join  a group of people around you who want to help you succeed. Mentors can be teachers, family or friends who can give you guidance and help you develop new skills. Counselors can help you with planning your courses and starting to explore colleges. You can also reach out to friends and peers who can motivate you by listening and sharing ideas. Also, join study groups at school with students that are in the same class or field as yourself. Good luck and stay encouraged

5. Know your limits and find your balance

As much as we’d like to think we’re invincible, we’re not. And that’s just fine. Invincibility is not the game we were built for. We get tired and we get frustrated and we get overwhelmed. The important lesson is to first discover your limits. For example, you may find that you study best in the morning. If you are to apply this lesson to the example, stick to studying in the morning. Don’t push it. You’ll be happier and most effective that way. The second part, once you figure out your limits, is to find a balance. Even if you wanted and had the energy to dedicate every waking moment to studying, you probably shouldn’t If you did, you may suffer elsewhere: your health, friendships or relationship with your partner, which contribute to your overall well-being. The point is, we all need a balance in our lives. The more balance we find, the happier and more successful we’ll be.

The enemy within

A tear isn’t just an any tear, it shows the pain, the grief in life. Tears show a lot of emotions, mostly not for an positive side. It is an expression to show the pain that you have about something or about yourself.

I have cried many times for the last five years, I have just broke down cause I couldn’t handle the normal life, because that is not me anymore. I am a person who is sick and will always have those periods where you can’t control your emotions anymore. And believe me I have tried my best to show my best side. I can’t hide those emotions or get them away, I will always have them. It’s the truth that I have to understand. I can’t imagine a life where I will never feel depressed anymore, I can get less periods, but I can’t get them completely away.

I can feel the pain when I see photos of someone crying. I can see that they are hurt or are just tired of life. It is hard to know these things cause it effects yourself. That is one of the most hurtful personality that you can have. I just have to realize that this is me and I have to control it, and the only thing that can help me with that is to talk to my doctor when I feel the symptoms are coming back.


I just wished that this would be over now, but I was wrong.



My drug

I have been thinking a lot about my childhood, when I was around ten to fourteen years old. It is weird to see how your personality will change in such a short time. For example me and my friends in elementary school was exploring the theme around music. We found a pop/rock band from Germany, the band was called tokio hotel. That was the first time anyone of us really have found something interesting about music. It was not like typical what children would hear. We came to our teenage stage, where we were fangirling over this band. That band was a big part of us and it is still now. Only because they got us girls closer, but it is also the memories we have from that time. The craziness we had that no other on our age had.

And because of that music have been the most important thing to me. It is the relaxation with but it is also something else. It can express our feelings and we can feel the song. I have spend a lot of time to listen to music. It has got so far that I have to sleep with music on, if I don’t I will not feel full rested the next day. The most important with music for me are to feel the relaxation and the feeling you get when your really feeling the song.

If you had said to me when I was around twelve years old, that music will be my drug. Then I wouldn’t believe it, but it is and it will be. But it is the most amazing feeling and it has helped a lot along the way. I don’t have any favorite genre at all, cause it keeps changing all the time. And that is a great feeling to not be lock into on thing.And you can also see that with everyone that music is a big part of everyone and it will grow!


I will remind you that if you want to read my posts from the notebook then you have to send me a message or give me your e-mail and you will get the password.


It’s a notebook

I have an gold notebook where I have been writing from 28th of march in 2015. That was the period where everything started to go black. Everything was changed that date and I wanted to share a few with you!

In this notebook I have been writing about my deepest thoughts and about when times have been very difficult. And now I will start to translate them over to english and publish a few of them here. The thing is that I am gonna have password on them, so if you want to read them. The plan is to have them published on Sunday, but I’m not sure if I will publish every Sunday. But that will be on the first post. I will start publish the posts next Sunday on the 31th of January.

Please send me a message and you will get the password!

2015 – part 2

I have been writing this part a few times. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to write so much in detail in this one. I imagined that I was gonna write 3 parts, but the original part wasn’t easy to write, so I skipped that one (This is the last part).

Things that happened from June-December:

  • Concert, I went on a one direction concert with my best friend in Oslo. We had a blast and enjoyed our time together.
  • Vacation, me and my mom went on a cruise from Venezia, Croatia, Greece and Venezia again. It was so relaxing to be on a cruise where you didn’t have to plane anything, since everything was there. But also all the places we went to was just amazing to see.
  • School, I had to move away to go on this school, so that was a really good thing for me. But also that I went to school is something that helped me a lot.


  • Show, me and my dad went on a show of an illusionist called Alexx Alexxander. The show was so incredible! But we also met him and some of his crew and they are such nice people. They take time to talk to his fans and are so good hearted. The show was so amazing that me & dad went on five shows, and every show was different but it got us both speechless every single time. So we can’t wait until March!


I think that this year has been difficult and very exhausting at the same time, but I have also got the time so see something that has changed my perspective about life. It all toped when my grandma passed away and it is still isn’t easy. It has been a very difficult time for me for almost five years now, and I feel that finally that it is my time to feel free and live. To start to learn about myself and explore the world. So let’s just hope that it will continue in 2016 or get better!

2015 -Part one

If I had to describe year 2015 with one word, then I would say that 2015 has been challenging. It has been one of my worst, but also one of the best year of my life. The first half of the year has been so hard and depressing, but the last half of the year has been so amazing and changed everything. This post will be in two or three parts.

12511889_10206574734465607_1150823294_nThere isn’t much that I remember from the first months of 2015. It has been one of the hardest time of my life where I really would hope that it was only an nightmare. I got sick in December and isolated myself in my bedroom. I got sicker and sicker every week that passed. There was a big part of me that didn’t want to continue to live. I felt that all the negative just streamed around in my body and just got bigger and bigger. My thoughts weren’t one the positive side, depression got me. Depression was the one who decided on what I should do. I wasn’t capable to take care of my own life and I was good enough to see it for myself.


I went to my doctor and had an breakdown and told the final truth of everyhting. There have been many nights were I have been thinking about what if I didn’t seek for help? Would I still live? I still think of this, cause it was so close to just take over me. That I would take my own life, but what did change? I got help and found out that it was just me who did something wrong. I was always looking back for the bad memories and taking myself just more down. It opened my eyes, cause I couldn’t see that I did that so much. It was normal to me to do that, to not live for the future. I couldn’t imagine how my life would be later. I didn’t have dreams for the future, I just wanted to take back all the bad memories and change everything to a better choice.

I should have hoped that I could go back and tell myself that before everything started, that everything will be alright. That I just have to believe in my dreams and dream of the future. It is something that I would have wished that everyone who wants to relive their life to know. You can’t do that even how much you want to. It is hard to close those memories that is so hurtful, but that is the best thing for yourself if not you will lose yourself just like I did. I will never be the same anymore, one of my biggest problems are that I don’t know who I am and that is something no one deserve!

No inspiration

I don’t know what to write anymore for you, is there something that you want? When I started I said that this would be like a diary for me, where I could write about anything I want. But I still don’t know what to write. I feel that it is so much going on with everything and my health isn’t that good anymore. But I will try to post more when I feel the motivation and inspiration to write something.

Ps! there will be a post later on this week or next week, about this year.