Christmas is here!

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Hi everyone!

Just wanted to say merry christmas to you all, and I hope that everyone will have an amazing and blessing christmas. And also that you are with those you wanted and also that you can check something from the wish list!

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Get to know me

Today I’ll do the tag where I answer 21 questions about myself.

Here we go…

1. Are you named after anyone? I think I’m named after my grandma, but I’m not sure, but her name was Anna and my name is Anne.

2. When was the last time you cried? That was actually for two days ago, all the stress from school and tiredness.

3. Do you have kids? No.

4. If you were another person, would you be a friend of yourself? Probably yes, but it isn’t easy to get to know me since I’m a really shy and calm girl. But when you get to know me, then I would show my crazy side!

5. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Yes, me and my best friend use that a lot.

6. Will you ever bungee-jump? Yes I would have loved to do that!

7. What’s your favorite cereal? I’m not a fan of cereal, but it probably some really unhealthy one.

8. What’s the first thing you notice about people? There is to thing that I notice and that’s the shoes and eyes.

9. What is your eye color? Blue.

10. Scary movie or happy endings? I love scary movies even that I don’t watch that so much anymore. I love that my pulse gets really high and the adrenaline comes, but I also love happy endings.

11. Favorite smells? Right now it would be the new perfume of gucci, Bamboo.

8fd5ac2ab57e1b274b03eb71932e056012. Summer or winter? I love both, I was born in the Summer and I love the warmth and also vacation. But the winter is wonderful, because of the snow, cozy times,christmas and movies so I think that right now it would be winter.

13. Computer or television? Computer, I am watching a lot of series and movies on my computer and not on television. I can’t handle the advertising, so computer is my life!

14. What’s the furthest you’ve ever been from home? I travelled to New York city with my mom. And now I have been away from home since August,but that is only 2 hours away.

15. Do you have any special talents? No, I don’t think so.

16. Where were you born? In Norway.

17. What are your hobbies? Just hanging around with my friends and family, music, youtube and also school right now that never ends.IMG_1384

18. Do you have any pets? Yes I have an almost 2 year old white cat, called Chanel.

19. Favorite movie? There is to much so I can’t choose.

20. Do you have any siblings? Nope.

21. What do you want to be when you grow up? I would move to another country and work with something that I love.

A new chapter in my life

I thought that everything was going pretty good. I felt like is was myself again. I have started to hang out with my best friend again. Almost everyday for several of hours. I was finally starting to be or act like an normal teenager. I have never done that. I have always had so much stuff to handle with that I always had to grow up. Take care of myself. I have never felt this happy as I can remember. Is it just because I’m largemoving soon or is it the medicine? I want this happiness to continue and just block out all the negative emotions forever. But I have found out how deep and dark I am. I have learned a lot of myself. I love the darkness, sad music, dark colors, being alone, think a lot about stuff. I have always been wondering about life and death. Can this be a reason for that I have struggled with depression, but of course there’s a lot more to come with it. Like my mother’s depression, my sorrows.

But right now I feel ready. I want to explore more about the world and life. I want to find more about myself! I’m soon moving out. I will move to another city. This is one of the most important task that I had taken. If I didn’t do this now, I can’t imagine how this would have been then. But I am actually looking forward go move to get away from family and everyone. This will my new start of life.

A new chapter!

Personal tips to get better

How can you keep yourself busy? When you have depression or something else. The most common thing to do is to block everything out. It is difficult to start over again, every single day. But you continue everyday, but it doesn’t  mean that you are better. But you are blocking every feeling that you have and when your home then you can start feel it again. It’s not just me or you, who is like that. Everyone is like this. It can take a long time before you will try to start over. And you will try many times.

It isn’t easy to try to get better. It’s a long road that will be with you for rest of your life. Because it’s a bad memory, and those are the hardest memory to get rid off. But one day you will think that this was the past, and you are okay with it. That was you for 1 or 5 years. And you know that you actually can get better!

But here’s some tips that helped me a lot to get better.

  • Be Active – One of the things I did was to get a better lifestyle. I started to walk everyday for 20-30 minutes. This was my time to think about everything and it was my alone time. largeLater on I started to do more exercises with squats,pushups and sit-ups. I wanted my strength and muscles to get a lot better. Because in December I got sick and I was that for 2-3 months before they found out what was wrong with me. I was staying in bed all day long. I still feel that there a long way still. But I have started and that’s the best feeling that you can have.
  • Search for help – That is the most important thing that I did. Talk with your friend, family or doctor. It is hard to tell something like this, but it really helps. You will feel that you have done something right and you will feel lighter then you were before you didn’t tell anybody. If I didn’t do that I wouldn’t be like this today. I have been seing my doctor since February about depression. I have been talking with my closest friends about it and my mother. It doesn’t mean that you are gonna tell everybody in the world about it. But find someone you really trust.
  • Start to write your feelings – It is really good to write down those feelings. You can write about anything you want. But for me it was really important to write about things because I lost a lot of memories. large-1I forgot everything I couldn’t say what I did the day before. I couldn’t remember things from my childhood. I couldn’t say how I was cause my mind was so blocked out. Just like I had been emptying it. So later on I started to put some pictures if my family so I could remember how they looked like. So I have decided that I will not read anything about it, before New Years Eve. I really don’t want to read it now and get depressed again. So I think that it is important to write it down and maybe look at it a few months later. Don’t start to read it 1 month after. Cause that will just make you more depressed.
  • Find a tv series – One thing that I have done recently is to find a tv series with my best friend.large-2 This is like our time. It is a great idea to do by yourself or with a friend or family. Cause this will get you out of the bubble that you are in. Because of this we have come even closer then we used to do.
  • Get a rutine – My rutine was the worst! I could stay up until 5 o’clock and just lay there. I didn’t have any rutine on when I was gonna get up or when I was gonna eat. Mostly of my days I would only eat 1 meal every day. I would sleep until 3 or 5 pm. I had nothing to live for, I didn’t have any job or school to go to. Of course my rutine would get ruined. So when I visited my doctor the first thing she did was to give me some tasks. The first thing is to go to bed early around 11 pm. Get up 8 am. Eat 3 meals every day. Walk 5 times in a week. It wasn’t easy, but I managed to do this tasks a little better every week.  It was getting easier and easier. And these tasks I got them in February and I’m still doing them. So my tip for you is that set some easy tasks for you. Something that you can manage and you won’t struggle to do. It doesn’t help to start with the hardest tasks.

 

I hope that this will help you and get an inspiration to try to get better. It is seriously the best feeling to have, when you finally can feel more happiness. That you doesn’t just block everything out. So this are a few and the most important things that have been helping me a lot now. I can finally feel more free, I really don’t feel that empty anymore. I wanna start over and inspire people.

Did you miss me?

As you can see there are a lot of posts on this blog right now. And maybe you wonder why? That’s because I have been writing everything as private. I have been having a long break, cause I couldn’t concentrate anymore. I was getting worser and worser every time I was thinking about that I was gonna write something down. What was I’m gonna write about? Shall I be honest or not? There was a lot of questions that I had. Why do you want to read this bullshit? Why my words about sorrows and pain?

But as I said I have been writing a lot lately and when I was ready I will put everything public. Since it is so personal when it is about yours feelings and thoughts. Then it is just hard to write about it and show it to everyone. There are many people who knows me who doesn’t now a thing about it. Cause I can’t. I’m not ready! I have tried to tell people, like my family and friends who I know I can trust. But always when I try I just can’t. But as you write my other posts. You will find out what I have been doing since last time I wrote something here.

A question

IMG_4934Hello everyone! As you can see i’m not blogging that much anymore. I’m getting a lot of help right now about my hypothyreose and now i’m also getting help around my depression. So right now my life doesn’t work at all! But I will come back to that later on. But there is one thing that I want you guys to answer me. I’m planning on getting better on blogging, but i’m not able to blog everyday or many blogs in a week right now. So I want you to click on which day you want me to post.  So that I can have a time limit on which day and time i’m gonna post. So this is anonymous so just click on what day that you think it’s best.

Grief Isn’t Something to Get Over

The emotion of grief may be triggered by the loss of a loved one or the result of a life circumstance. Many people believe that if you have effectively mourned a loss you will then achieve closure. The notion that one mourns a loss and then gets over it, to the extent that emotions about the loss are not triggered in the future, is a myth.grief-therapy

Similarly, children have such expectations about getting over loss. They seem to believe that one needs to do something in particular in order to achieve that goal. Several years ago, as host of a radio talk show for kids, I asked listeners about the issue of loss. An 8-year old boy told me that his grandfather had died two weeks before and he wanted to know how to get over it-he thinks about him all the time and can’t concentrate on anything else. A 12-year old boy explained that his dog had died and he wanted to know what to do since he couldn’t say good-bye to her and didn’t think that he could ever “fill [his] heart with anything else.” I didn’t ask what he meant by his choice of words, however, I felt its meaning. A 13-year old girl said that she asks her brother about what clothes look good on her because she doesn’t have a mom. Ever since her mother died several years before, her dad, she claimed, tries to be both a mom and dad. But it always feels like something is missing. She asked, “How do I get over my mom dying?”kyxfr7pv-1346041370

The misguided notion that grief is a process that allows a final working through of a loss is likely the fault of my own profession–mental health professionals who have promoted this notion in their work with grieving individuals. Clinical data makes it clear that any significant loss, later and repeatedly, brings up longing and sadness. Is it because these people have not achieved closure by traversing prescribed stages of mourning or because they have not “worked through the loss” as some therapists boldly claim? No. It’s because you never get over loss. As time passes, the intensity of feelings about the loss will lessen, you might also find ways to sooth or distract yourself, or you can partially bury grief-related feelings by creating new memories. But you’re not going to get over it because that’s impossible: you cannot erase emotional memory. Besides, it’s not about achieving closure. Instead you have to figure out what you are going to do when your emotional memories are later triggered.

Emotions that have to do with loss are triggered throughout our lives and you will live with them. Usually they are in the form of anniversary reactions, such as the birthday or death day of the lost loved one or any significant holiday in which you might want to be with the person who is gone. Reminders, such as visiting a place you’ve been with the person you lost, will trigger a similar response. In episodes of depression and high anxiety in patients, I always look for anniversary reactions and situation-matching reactions, such as when emotions are triggered and people just can’t understand why they would be anxious or depressed.images-1

Grief can also be triggered by an age-matching anniversary reaction, which is when a person’s age matches the age of a parent when they died. The remarkable power of age-matching anniversary reactions arising from the loss of a parent in childhood was demonstrated to me when I began training as a psychologist over 30 years ago. I had been treating a severely depressed man who, for many months, was not responsive to intensive psychotherapy or medication. Upon discovering with the patient that his depression began at a time in which his age matched his father’s age of death, the depression miraculously lifted. Beneath his depression lay a myriad of fears that he would be like his father, which included dying at the same age of his father as well as guilt that he was not like his father and could live a full life. Although he had been unaware of the age factor, his painful feelings seemed to recreate the trauma of his father’s death, which was too overwhelming for him to feel when he was ten years old.

One of the reasons that grief happens to be triggered by external reminders, such as in anniversary reactions, is because grief is an emotion that sends a vague alert to help you to remember, rather than to forget. Even so, what most people do with grief is attempt to forget–to get over it-which is quite contrary to the purpose of the emotion. Rather than try to forget, one must attempt to remember and cooperate with what your emotion is trying to convey. There are many ways to remember. You can remember what you learned from the person you lost, remember what you enjoyed, and you can cry if you feel like crying. Even if your grief is about a relationship gone bad, there is always something that you can learn by remembering it.

9076911794There are related themes of loss that people express, and later grief responses related to those losses, such as the many women and men who have given up a child for adoption. The child’s birth date does not pass by without an emotional reaction, whether or not they recognize it at the time. Similarly, the date a child would have been born for a childless woman who has had a miscarriage can trigger grief. The experience of loss when a relationship ends can be triggered on the former partner’s birthday, on the anniversary of when you met, or on any holiday.

Whenever I am bothered by the thought of just how misguided the notion of stages of grieving can be, I remember one patient in particular who wanted help with the depression she had every summer, which at the time she told me was when her 12-year old child had died 25 years before. She sought therapy because she was convinced that something was wrong with her. Every June, for 25 years, she had experienced a grief response. Simply knowing that she wasn’t crazy because of the intense affect that came up for her made it a bit easier the next time June arrived. And, rather than try to get rid of her painful feelings at the time, instead she learned to think about exactly what she would do to remember her son.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow sums up the lifelong experience of grief in the first 3 lines of his poem, Secret Anniversaries Of The Heart:
The holiest of all holidays are those
Kept by ourselves in silence and apart;
The secret anniversaries of the heart.

Recovery and staying well

Recovery can take time. As well as getting treatment underway, the person haslarge-59 to find new ways to manage, and live with, the changes and challenges of having depression and/or anxiety.

While psychological and/or medical treatment can help with a person’s recovery, there are many other ways people can help themselves to get better and stay well. Below are some practical tips on how to manage depression and anxiety.

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Recovery

Learn new ways to reduce and manage stress

Stress is common in daily life, but exposure to prolonged stress can start to affect your mental and physical health. Whatever the cause, here are some simple steps that can help you to reduce and manage stress:

  • Making major changes in your life can be stressful at any time. If you’re feeling stressed or anxious, it’s probably a good idea to try to avoid moving house or changing jobs. Leave them to a time when you’re feeling better.
  • Ongoing stress in personal relationships often contributes to depression and anxiety. Learn how to let people know about your feelings so that you can resolve personal conflicts as they come up. Talking to a counsellor or psychologist can help you find ways to address your problems.
  • Learn to relax. To do this, you need to allocate time to do the things you enjoy, such as exercising, meditating, reading, gardening or listening to music.
  • Take control of your work by avoiding long hours and additional responsibilities. This can be difficult, but small changes can make a difference.
  • Learn to say ‘no’. Create a balance between work and the things you enjoy doing. Don’t allow yourself to be overwhelmed by new commitments.
  • Include short-term coping strategies in your day, such as breathing and relaxation exercises. Listen to a guided progressive muscle relaxation exercise.

Happiness-Hands1Maintain a healthy lifestyle

Eating healthily, exercising regularly, getting enough sleep and avoiding harmful levels of alcohol and other drugs can help a person to manage the symptoms of depression and anxiety.

Tips for eating well

Having a mental health condition can make it difficult to eat well, but keeping things simple can help. Here are some tips:

  • Keep a daily timetable and include food-related activities such as shopping, cooking and eating.
  • Learn to prepare simple meals that don’t take too much time or energy to prepare. If you live on your own and aren’t eating proper meals, consider using frozen or home-delivered dishes.
  • Make use of the times when you feel good to prepare meals ahead of time (e.g. if you’ve got energy in the morning, make dinner then) or cook large quantities of food and freeze it.
  • Find out more about healthy eating by downloading Healthy eating for people with depression, anxiety and related disorders fact sheet.

Tips for getting active

Physical exercise such as walking, swimming, dancing, playing golf or going to the gym can help relieve the tension in your muscles, relax your mind and distract you from negative thoughts and worries. Try to do some physical exercise every day, even if it’s just going for a walk. Keep it simple and enjoyable. Here are some tips to get you started:

  • Increase activity levels gradually. Start by planning simple daily activities such as shopping, driving, gardening, writing emails or completing simple household tasks. Completing these activities can increase a person’s self-confidence and build the motivation needed to take on more energetic activities.
  • Plan activities that are enjoyable, interesting, relaxing or satisfying. These activities are important in overcoming depression and anxiety. At first, they may not feel as enjoyable as before, but with persistence, the pleasure should eventually return.
  • Participate in activities with family members and close friends, and accept social invitations, even though it’s the last thing you may feel like doing. Keeping connected with people helps increase levels of wellbeing, confidence and opportunities to participate in activities.
  • Planning a routine can help you to become more active. Make sure some form of exercise is scheduled in for each day. Try to stick to the plan as closely as possible, but be flexible.
  • Download Keeping active fact sheet.

Tips for getting a good night’s sleep

Depression and anxiety can disrupt sleep patterns. It’s essential to try to restore a regular sleep pattern to make a full recovery, so here are some tips:

  • Try to get up at about the same time each morning.
  • If you’re worrying about things during the night, set aside some time for problem-solving during the day.
  • Avoid drinking caffeine after 4pm and try not to drink more than two cups of caffeine-type drinks (e.g. coffee, strong tea, cola or energy drinks) each day.
  • Avoid using alcohol to help you sleep. As the alcohol is broken down in your body, it causes you to sleep less deeply and to wake more frequently.
  • Allow yourself time to wind down before going to bed. If you are working or studying, stop at least 30 minutes before bedtime and do something relaxing.
  • Download tips for sleeping well from Sleeping well fact sheet.

Tips for reducing alcohol and other drugs

It’s a good move to try to reduce the use of alcohol and other drugs, as they can cause long-term problems and make it much harder to recover. It’s also a good idea to avoid stimulants, in particular excessive amounts of caffeine and any kind of amphetamine (speed, ecstasy, ice), as these can worsen symptoms of depression and anxiety. Find out more by downloading .How to stay well The recovery process does not necessarily have a clear beginning, middle and end. Some people will only experience one episode of depression or anxiety in their lives, while others may go on to have another episode, or experience recurring symptoms of depression and/or anxiety.

Recognising triggers

There are some situations or events that can bring on an episode of depression and/or anxiety. These situations or events are referred to as ‘triggers’. Common triggers include family and relationship problems, financial difficulties, changes in living arrangements, changing jobs or losing a job, having other health problems and using alcohol and other drugs. Trying to avoid or manage these triggers can be an important part of recovering. For example, if you can’t avoid a certain situation that you think might trigger an episode, you may be able to manage its impact through stress management techniques or learning how to resolve conflicts early.

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Warning signs are signals that a person may be feeling depressed or anxious and it’s a good idea to learn how to recognise these signs. Family members and friends may notice changes in the way a person thinks, acts or feels. Some common warning signs include:

  • getting up later
  • finding it hard to concentrate
  • skipping meals and eating unhealthily
  • having disturbed sleep
  • feeling irritable, stressed and teary
  • withdrawing socially or wanting to spend a lot of time alone.

People can learn to identify their own warning signs by reflecting on what symptoms they’ve experienced in the past.

Getting over setbacks

Setbacks can be disappointing and getting over them can be difficult. When people relapse, it can be easy for them to fall into the trap of thinking that they will never feel well again. However, it’s important to understand there are ways of moving through this stage:

  • People shouldn’t blame themselves. Remember that setbacks are bound to happen and feeling disappointed can make moving on difficult.
  • Try again. Learning how to manage anything new can be about trial and error. Persistence is the key.
  • Focus on achievements. Feeling depressed and anxious can make it hard to see the good side of things. People should focus on what they have gained and use this to move on from setbacks.
  • Learn from setbacks. A relapse can help people evaluate their situation and, with the help of a health professional, find new ways to manage their condition. This can make people more able to cope with feeling unwell and may help prevent further setbacks.

My apps on my iPhone 6

Here’s my apps on my iPhone 6. I had the iPhone for 1 month I guess. And i’m loving it. So my plan was to show you guys what apps I have on it. I don’t have a lot of apps, because I’m scared to full it up. And I’m taking a lot of pictures. So the most important apps for me now is Spotify, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat and We Heart It. But I want some more and cool apps on it.
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So please comment if you have some cool apps

What are my favorites on Spotify?

large-47“Music is your own experience, your own thoughts, your wisdom. If you don’t live it, it won’t come out of your horn. They teach you there’s a boundary line to music. But, man, there’s no boundary line to art.”

– Charlie Parker

Her har jeg bare fort tatt bilde om hva jeg har hørt på i det siste. Å da ser du at Firestone av Kygo er den jeg har hørt mest på. Jeg er veldig glad i musikk og hører en del hver eneste dag. Jeg må til og med høre på musikk for å kunne sove. For det roer meg ned, men det er ikke alltid rolige sanger som gjør meg avslappet. Det forandrer seg veldig, men det som roer meg veldig for tiden er dupstep. Jeg har ikke bare en favorittsjanger når det kommer til musikk. Så jeg hører på det meste, men en ting jeg ikke klarer å høre på er country. Har ingen grunn for det, mn jeg klarer det bare ikke.
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Hva er din mest hørte sang i det siste?